I have been more sick in the past 6 months than in the past 10 years and it’s starting to take its toll – being so tired.
I’m looking forward to see what the last weeks hold for us in the program and I’m ready for the finish line.
It’s been a great journey so far so I’m kind of anxious to see what they have in store for us for the end…
I have reached an enjoyment of the exercises that is new.
In the beginning there was an excitment of the new.
Then I was getting bored with some of them, and sporadically didn’t do them consistently.
Then a sense of duty, courage, faith – powering through for the good of my future self.
Now there is this feeling that the exercises are truly part of my life. And I experience true enjoyment doing them.
I have starting teaching some around me.
I am coming to a new understanding of the exercises, my understanding – of their impact on my life, better yet, what I want them to impact on my life, why I want them in my life.
So it makes me desire them even when I am resisting them. It goes beyond the guild I have felt before when I was not being consistent. Today there is no guild – there is just me watching the resistance, aknowledging it and moving passed it, because there is no other way for me now.
And it is starting to expand the reach of independant thinking around the program.
Questions like how to own the process for myself or how to make it fit my life better have started to pop up in my head.
How can I expand this further into my life?
How can I play with it ?
How can I bring more consistency into this practice ?
In a sense I can feel as we are entering the third act of this experience, the importance of developing my own thinking around every aspect of what we are and have been doing – spread my own wings.
And the vision thus far is endless as to how much I can do to push this forward, as to how much I can accomplish.
Right now, all I want to focus on is find that place of harmony for myself – and let myself be surprised and uplifted by where it can take me.
Peace, play & passion !
Concentrate upon your power to create.
Seek insight and perception.
Find a logical basis for the faith which is in you.
That was Haanel plan for us on week 18. I found it hard to understand what it meant at first, especially on finding a logical basis for faith. Then I just let it go and asked for insight and perception on my sit.
And here is what came for me.
The faith in me comes from my need to connect, my need for a purpose, give sense to my life and the world surrouning me. It was brought to me by my search for truth and freedom. I need it to breath, to live, to exist in the world. Without it I am in despair and confusion – I am lost.
For my power to create I need to be in the flow of energy, enjoying the flow of energy, play with the flow of energy.
I need to see the flow of energy in me and in other people.
It’s about connecting with this energy, giving energy and receiving energy.
It’s about embracing love as this process of exchange of energy – getting that energy of LOVE out there.
Peace & Love to all.
Focusing on self-control this week actually brought a lot of confusion.
Self-control is the first virtue I have had a hard time to spot in others. Or should I say I spotted lack of self-control more easily.
And as the week went by I was realizing I had a lot more self-control than what I initially thought… maybe even too much. Especially considering I was focusing on self-control the very week we were asked on the MKE to look at obituaries, which I looked at as a metaphor for letting go of things of the past to move forward.
At that point I could not look at self control as a virtue anymore but on the contrary as something that can be blocking my path.
Can there be any fusion between self-control and letting go ? Is there a point where these can meet ?
So now I’m not actually sure I want to develop self-control as a virtue.
I’m still thinking about it but it seems for me, right now, learning to let go and follow my bliss is more important.
Discipline and persistence in this aspect are of trumendous value. And I’m not sure self-control fits in as I feel it has the potential to be counter-productive.
I want to be the observer, it’s fun and instructive. I do not want to be vigilant all the time, it’s stressful.
I haven’t made up my mind yet… time will tell !
Create in Harmony
Know your power
Abide by your intuition
Recognize abondance – kindness – happiness – love everywhere
Vibrate this energy
These are my seven laws of consciouness !
Enjoy, apply, repeat 🙂
This week I feel I’m making the transition from a state of mind to a state a of consciousness.
The last 15 weeks in the MKE, we’ve build a state of mind which dwells in positive thoughts and constructive habits. Not that it is an easy thing to get done but the program pushes us, step by step, in that state of mind.
This week I feel a shift in Haanel’s teaching, going deeper into the understanding of our spiritual nature.
“Harmony & happiness are states of consciousness”.
A state of conciousness which dwells in harmony, happiness, kindness, creating harmony, happiness and kindness within itself, not being influenced by outside circumstances. There is still a learning curve to be experienced here.
As I’m going further in, still there are doubts and fears surfacing, vigilance, warnings, I do not want to be submerged by something that I do not control.
A state of consciousness, that’s what I’m aiming for. And self-control is the companion I need to grow to get there.
In love & happiness, best wishes to all for 2018 !
What is the difference ? There are different words so there has to be a degree of difference.
We focused on persistence in the MKE for the past few weeks, you can read about it in last week’s post. I have focused on surrendering the past few weeks because that is where my own journey is taking me, you can read about it in this post.
This week is about DISCIPLINE. And the first question I asked myself was “What is the difference with persistence”. Went to the dictionnary.
DISCIPLINE is the quality of being able to behave and work in a controlled way which involves obeying particular rules or standards.
What I like about this definition is the reference to LAW. Discipline is a quality, a virtue, which demands a surrendering to laws.
I like how everything fits together. I feel that I’ve been working toward surrendering more and more to the will of God. I guess Haanel opens our mind to the fact that the Divine sets order in a set of laws that we are introduced to. So the more I surrender, the more I have to abide by these laws.
This week I have tried to dwell in discipline, it’s really not so easy to find. I need to let the meaning sink in. Mostly I have dwelled in Haanel lesson whih was very insightful :
“We cannot obtain what we lack if we tenaciously cling to what we have. We are able to conscioulsy control our conditions as we come to sense the purpose of what we attract, and are able to extract from each experience only what we require for our further growth. Our ability to do this determines the degree of harmony or happiness we obtain.”
The only way to surrender is to die to yourself, let it go ! I need discipline for this.
The figure of discipline for me this week is our new Archbishop of Paris, being installed today. He had a carrier as a doctor before he became priest, bishop and now archbishop. He surrenders his life again and again and again, at every milestone of his journey, with commitment and discipline.